Author: Lauren Boren
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When I was first diagnosed with a lot of things went through my head. It felt like a joke or a mistake, as if surely my pathology had been mixed up with someone else鈥檚. Then there was the fear that I could die and the realization that I might have to eventually say goodbye to my waist-length hair. But behind all of the distress about treatment was an overwhelming feeling of disbelief that I was about to be surgically and chemically sterilized at age 28.
A lot of people tried to make me feel better by reminding me that I already had a beautiful child, but that was no consolation. In the weeks leading up to my hysterectomy, my mind was constantly racing with thoughts of future surrogacy, never being pregnant again, and having to explain to every future dating partner that I was permanently infertile. I鈥檝e never been one to place my worth as a person into my identity as a mother, but from diagnosis to surgery it felt like I was being robbed of something fundamental to my identity as a woman.
After my hysterectomy, we found out my cancer was much more advanced than originally thought鈥攕tage 3C metastatic disease. To have the best chance of survival I would need chemotherapy, full pelvic radiation, and long-term hormone therapy鈥攖reatments almost guaranteed to send me into menopause. What started as planning and saving for a "maybe" surrogacy in several years turned into a rush to retrieve and freeze my eggs before my first infusion.
The Utah Center for Reproductive Medicine gave me an immediate appointment and helped me apply for financial support through . I spent the three weeks leading up to my first chemotherapy infusion having daily ultrasounds and blood tests and giving myself shots of fertility medications. I had my egg retrieval just four days before chemo was scheduled to start.
Three years have passed and I am still very grateful to have had the opportunity to go through fertility preservation. As time has gone by, I am very happy with my decisions. I鈥檓 actively looking into pursuing surrogacy within the next five to seven years.
Being able to retrieve and freeze eggs before chemotherapy gave me back a little bit of the control I felt I was lacking. I had a sense of solace knowing I did everything I could to diminish at least that one long-term, damaging side effect.
If you want to preserve your ability to have children, talk to your doctor before chemotherapy, radiation, or surgery begins. Learn more about preserving fertility from the Utah Center for Reproductive Medicine.
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